I always get a lil lonely on Christmas Eve. I’ll admit it. My family and I always do Christmas day together. We spend the whole day together and I love it. But the day before, when all my friends are with their families, or doing other things, I get a lil lonely, i’ll admit it. It’s rare that I am lonely, so it’s not the end of the world. Just makes waiting for Christmas day a little harder is all.
I’ve been really struggling with my anxiety this week. It’s rare that I struggle as much as I have been lately. I am really good at coping usually. And when it gets this bad, I know that there is big change coming, or that I need to make a big change. I have been having a lot of doubts about my job lately. I have a good job, and I love my coworkers, so it would be a hard decision to leave for something new. But I must admit that the stress has been getting to me more than it ever has. I do think that things will get better, but we just aren’t there yet.
I don’t do well with change, so I don’t take it lightly. And I still have a lot to think about before making any decisions one way or the other. At the end of the day though, I have to do what’s best for me.
So what do you do when you are dealing with anxiety that just won’t quit? Well, for me the best way to deal with it is to remind myself that there is no use worrying about things that are out of my control. I ask myself am I doing everything that I can? And generally the answer is yes, and if it isn’t, I take more action. When I do that and take a few deep breaths, and then remind myself that in the grand scheme of things, it’s not the end of the world, and how much else I still have in my life to be grateful for, well that generally calms me down.
It’s when the overthinking and worrying start that I self-sabotage. I make up these scenarios in my head and get carried away. But sometimes what I do when I am worried about a certain thing happening, I imagine it happening, and how I would feel when it does and how I would react, and just that, making peace with the worst case scenario, can be really freeing and take the pressure off.
These are just some of the many things that have helped me deal with my anxiety and over-thinking. More to come in future posts of course.
Until then, I hope that you all have a great holiday with your families, and I will talk to you in 2018 and talk about the resolutions I am making for it!