So I had a much better week this week for the most part. Still not keeping my anxiety quite at bay, but did much better with it this week. How did I? By letting things go. When I am having a hard time, I just focus on myself and my own energy and let anything that I can’t control go. It’s not worth worrying about things that may or may not happen, total wasted energy. Easier said than done sometimes of course, as anyone who deals with anxiety knows, but it’s what helps me the most.
No matter how much people around me try to calm me down and tell me everything is okay, I sometimes just won’t believe them. It’s only when I come to the realization truly on my own that I am able to deal with whatever is triggering my anxiety.
Sometimes when it’s really bad, I also try accepting the worst case scenario. For example, if i’m worried about a date or going into a party where I don’t know people well, or don’t know a lot of people, I think of the worst thing that can happen, and once I accept that, and realize that even IF it happens, it’s not so bad, I can relax and be mostly back to normal.
I talk about some specific things, and I know that may get lost on some of you, but it helps me to kind of write things out sometimes and realize how I sound. Sometimes realizing how silly my worrying sounds helps me a lot too, sometimes like I tell the people around me, all I need is an eye roll to know that i’m being ridiculous.
But dealing with anxiety and being intuitive at the same time makes it hard sometimes. Because it’s hard to know when you’re just being paranoid and actually feeling something. That is a struggle for me, and it’s a goal of mine to find ways to distinguish between the two, not that I will always know except in hindsight, but it would be a great tool for me for sure.
All in all I had a pretty good week. I play trivia every monday with my friends at a bar, and it changed locations this year. It was nice to see everyone, but some of the teams stayed at the old bar, so who knows what will happen, it might be nice to try out both locations and see what we prefer. Although I gotta say, the new bar has deep fried pickles which is one of my favorite things lol. I also went to see Molly’s Game with my friend which was really good. Lots of actors I like in it and an interesting story. It made me realize I need to watch more trailers because I never seem to know what movies are coming out until it’s either too late or people have already seen the ones I want to. Gotta watch them online since I don’t have TV.
This week is also shaping up to be a good week, and I plan to make the most of it. Earlier I talked about things that are out of my control. Well, I am making a conscious effort to work on the things that I CAN control, namely my weight loss and getting into better financial shape. I got my new Smartlife Push Journal and i’m super excited about that! Gonna keep better track of my goals and stay accountable. Accomplish a lot in these first 90 days! Just need to break it down.
Alright. I’m going to end it there, and i’ll be back sometime next week.